Kesabaran

"Will you test me to the limit?"

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Please.

If you really don't want me to hold on.

Just tell me to let go.

With just those words you can ease the pain.

Heal the wounds you have come upon me.

I never asked you to love me back.

To stop loving her.

All I asked from you is:

If you want to give us a second chance,let's try.

If you want us to be just friends,say it.

I'm not asking you to apologize.

It's my fault for liking you so much.

You never did ask me to love you.

You just be you.

You were sweet , nice and caring.

If those were lies,I can't say.I'm not you.

But I love that you.

I seen another side of you.

An annoying one at that.

But underneath that you still are sweet.

I still see your sweetness in that charming smile.

Haha.No.

I'm not trying to get you to like me.

I'm being me.I'm being honest.

I know .. no. I don't know.

You might still hold on or you might have let go.

But,I can see the hurt when I said her name.

I wasn't trying to be cruel.

I was only trying to test you.

Faris.

Yes.I will say your name.Besides,there's a lot of Faris in this world.

I'm sorry by saying her name triggered a bullet at your heart.

And NO.I'm not trying to run away from my actions.

:)

I tried enough of running.

I tried enough of hating.

I still love you.

I'm sorry for when I had you,I didn't appreciate you too much.

I know what I had,I just didn't appreciate it that much.

My time was divided by two.

You were my boyfriend.

I should have given you more of my attention.

No.I can't change the past.

But I can try and create a better future.

Faris.

I told you everything.

I've shown you proof.

What more do you want from me?

No.I'm not asking  a way for me to win your heart.

I'm just asking on how many ways must I show for you to be convinced by my feelings.

I asked you can you imagine what I'm feeling.

You said you don't know.

That brought tears,amore.

I've shown you why I acted this way.Why I feel this way.

You still are that uncaring of me?

No matter.

Please tell me if you don't care of what we had before.

Just tell me.

Words like that won't kill me.It can heal me :)

Don't test me to a limit.

A limit where I just stop everything.

I stop caring,loving and holding on.

Don't treat me like a machine with a metal heart.

I'm a girl.

Strong enough to stand alone.

Too fragile for only one to destroy.

I said time can heal this wound.It can.

But no one knows when that time will come.

All I want for us to change that time.

From letting go to giving a second chance.

Don't ask me why I act differently outside.

I'm not faking my attitude.

I won't show weakness to people who doesn't deserve to be given that power.

If we can talk alone.Only us.

You will see a side.Where you can break me.

With just one smile or one goodbye.

I'm not her,Faris.

Please don't expect me to be an exact replica of her for you.

Like me for me.

If you want to give US a second chance.

Do it because you love me.

Not because it feels your time or a way for you to forget her.

I'm not a toy to be played and used.

I'm a person with emotions that had been abused.

Amore.

I don't expect you to be something you're not.

Be you.

Maybe I haven't met the real you.

But to me,the one I met before.

Is real enough for me.

Love isn't when someone can kill you but trusting them not to.

Love is giving them choices of ways to kill you.

But they'll throw that all away for a hug to seal that trust.

I'm not healthy.

I asked you not to make me cry with your actions.

I can barely hold on to the jolts of pain.

Don't add the pain to what you already left once.

Wow.

This one's long too!

Haha.alright.

See ya guys.

It's late,Night! :)