Mr. Rainbow

'Mr.Rainbow,I love rainbows more because of you'

Hey Hi Blog.

Okay.Remember when I said about Mr.Rainbow?

Well let me tell you about him.

He's a friend of Faris.YES.

A friend of my ex.How adorable am I *roll eyes*

How did we first met or talk?Facebook~

But at first.It was harmless people getting to know each other.

Nothing more.Nothing less.

Then.we begin to be considered friends with each other.

And somehow.

After the random teasing of Pilot[A friend of my ex as well] *hides under bed*

I started to like him more than friends.

At first,I was like. "No.That can't be.We're just goofing around."

But,a few times later,  I was like "Err...Maybe?This is confusing.... T.T"

How cute am I falling from a guy to another?  *duck face*

That's how we met to be short and simple.

I don't really remember quite clearly  but I know it was through Facebook.

Next, a little something about Mr.Rainbow.

His real name is ....... ..... ..... . Not gonna tell you! ^o^

But let's call him Mr.Rainbow shall we.

He's 17 and guess what.

He has a 14 year old sister at MY school.

Wonderful and grand isn't it? *slaps face*

He loves to ride his motorcycle with his now beloved helmet 

:3

But of course.Boys will be boys.

During one of their school camp,he fell into a pond and got his head cut.

T.T that guy really needs a personal doctor with his recklessness.

Of course.I was his but only through text messages.

But it seemed to help as well.Hehehehe *happy dance*

Oh,BTW.

He got 98 for his LK paper in trial SPM.

Smart right?Don't say it aloud.Ssshhh... 

We don't want his head to increase in size.

Nice :)

Well now.

The next thing I know about him and the latest.

This is the one thing that broke my heart into microscopic pieces.

He is engaged.

Well just got engaged last Saturday.

To whom,I don't know.

The fact is that he's engaged *cries a river*

How shattered was I.You can't imagine.

I wanted to be happy for him but I just can't fake it perfectly.

Does he even love his fiancee?

Okay.I better stop before my tears cover my notebook.

There will be more post about him.

But later,okay.

See you later~ Night! 

BTW,this picture above was taken by him when we were skyping for the first time!

Damn.I look so sleepy -.- 

How 'adorable' you are , Mr.Rainbow.

Love you :* xoxo

Carnival

Hey Lovely Blog.
I miss you so much but I've been busy,lazy and procrastinating to update you.
Sorry -.-

Well.
This is going to be a simple and short post.
But,I'm warning you right now.
After this post.Another one's coming.
And it'll be longer than you expect.

Well,recently.
The SKK Carnival was held at Semenza's field.
The carnival was not bad.Really fun actually.
Well,I took part in S.I.R [again Grr...]
Alhamdulillah,got second *happy dance*

Well,before that.
I had help the school to set up the displays at our school's booth.
Not bad I do say so myself.
But oh well.
Though our booth didn't get the prettiest or whatever booth.
Ours was one of the most visited cause of the awesomeness radiating from the booth!
xD
Such lies.What is wrong with me tonight?!
No.We had a lot of fun activities,people were interested.
So yea.

Ok.
I  met mr.rainbow that day as well.
Who is mr.rainbow you might ask.
I'll tell you that later bloggie ;)
See you later.
:* xoxo

Alex Clare - Too Close Lyrics

Rawr.Baby.Rawr

Hey fellow bloggers of the universe.
Watcha doing? :)
I feel like posting a little of what I wanna tonight.
Bored since tomorrow I ain't going to school,hehehe :3
What?!No one will be in class anyway.
They're all going to Kemahang.I'm not.
Not that well.I don't wanna burden my host parents.

Well,Alhamdulillah.
Day by day I'm much more at ease with myself.
Faris,I still love you.
But I'm better off right now.
Happy and content.

Well,I have a fake relay with a guy friend of mine.
First time I ever had a fake relationship.
It feels weird and yet right.
I don't love him but I like him as a friend for now.
It's mutual for us.
No heart break.Just fun and simple relationship.

Ok.
Getting sleepy.
Night night everyone.
See ya :*

:'(

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  June 25

  Faris Zharfan

  • haha, bye syg. I love you.
• 

  June 25

  Fatimah Irdina Kamelia

  • bye2 syg.. I Love You too 
    
    
    
    
    Oh my...
    Why are you so close to my heart Faris?
    I can't do this.
    I can't.
    
    
    I can't look at you anymore without crying.
    I can't speak to you anymore without sobbing.
    I can't think of you anymore without making me insane.
    I can't love you anymore without breaking my heart.
    
    
    I can't delete you out of my heart,mind and soul.
    
    
    You...you broke me Faris.
    Just like Boboi,my first love,once did.
    
    
    But this time,its a thousand times worst.
    Cause I started to believe in love again when...
    you broke all that away for me.
    
    
    :'( 
    
    
    I'm not strong Arif.I'm sorry.
    
    
    
    
    

Bye Sayang.Hahaha

See you later,Alligator.I'm better off without you.

Alhamdulillah.

I'm finally free from the long awaited answer.

I didn't care you said no.

I care that I'm free of being stuck to you by one answer.

Now,you're nothing more than friends to me :)

It's been a long restless nights because of you.

Some sickening drama and heart break.

But right now,

I'm so grateful to Allah SWT.

I'm finally free to be sexy,free and single! hahaha xD

Oh old posts.I meant what I said.

But right now,All of that can go rot.

I have a new life and perspective.

Don't judge me by my past.I don't leave there anymore.

So,here goes new life without your shrubs in my mind.

I loved you.Now I just... I just know you as a friend.That's all.

No need for the dramas anymore for me.

You're pathetic that time you know.

Only when my friend help,you gave me an answer.

Was it so hard to answer to me right away?

It's sickening somehow. 

I adored you once.Not now.

I cared for you so much.Now you can find someone else.

I'm cute,free and single :3

No need for the sexy.hehehe.

That's all.

See ya, Seattle! 

O.O

Jump Then Fall-Taylor Swift-Lyrics

Baby Giraffe

"Baby Giraffe Jahat! T.T"

Gosh.I hate you baby giraffe.

Why do you have to be so cruel with me?

T.T

huhu.You know how much I miss you?I miss you,stupid! 

>.<

You gotta...Urgh!huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.

Damn.I'm such a cry baby.

I love you damn much,baby giraffe!

How many times must I say that?

Or you want me to scream that out loud?

Faris.please.

Stop tormenting me with your silence of that answer.

Do you know how unstable I am every time I think of you?

=3= 

I don't stalk you , you big egg head.

But I know the little things about you.

Not all.I wasn't given the chance to know you that well.

huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu.

My eyes hurt from crying.

I know.I know.

You have SPM.

but,pinky promise!

I won't bother your studies.Just be mine.

Don't make me be stuck in this paranoid mode.

Baby giraffe...

I know that SPM is important.I'll go through it next year too you know.

But I know I can be a good girl.

I won't bother you when you need to study.

I'll help with all my might for you to study.

I'll be your alarm clock.

Your personal diary reminding of the remaining days.

Your stinky pillow in emergencies of too much stress.

Your trust worthy friend of all your problems.

Your stuff panda for you to cuddle with.

I can be your everything as long I'm your everything in your eyes.

I don't mind of all the other girl friends you have.

I'm not your wife.hahahaha.

But , all I want is to be the princess of your heart.

Be your one and only.

Even when you laugh,smile,chuckle or have fun with other girls.

I just want to give you a special happiness,

One that none of your friends can give.

Oh my.

This post is long.

I'm sorry readers.

I'm in a mode where I can't turn off.

I'm deeply in love.

People say give up.He's not worth it.

I know.I know.

But even when the world gives me a million reasons for me to let you go.

I hold on to that one,solid reason of why I still believe in you.

In that one solid chance of us.

Faris.Baby Giraffe.Sayang.

I love you with all of my butt.I would say heart but my butt is bigger

xD

I'm not lying.I'm telling the truth.

I care for you.I love you honestly I do.

That's all.

See ya :)

Raya.Raya.Raya

29 Hari Ramadhan dengan 7 hari Aidilfitri

Hehe.

dah sampai Hari Raya AidilFitri.

Boleh makan banyak2~ :3

Hari ni 1st day of the celebration.

Best sgt2 kut?x lah jugak.

Lagi best kalau baby giraffe ada.haha

Oh well.

Esok ada lagi.Lusa.Tulat dan seterusnya.

Duit raya x kira2 lagi ni.hehe.

Baju hari ni bunga merah dan hitam.

Nak display gambar pun,xde masa nak ambik.

Pastu kan,

xdi call lah baby giraffe.

^_^ (happy)

Nape lah aku tersenyum sorang ni?haha.

(ni gambar tudung.baju ala2 dah tu dgn warna t shirt xD)

Btw.gambar kat atas tu kan.

Selepas tu,jatuh kerusi hijau kat belakang tu.

Mujur x bangun sepupu2 ku :3

Nape lah happyku hari ni?hehe

Bo Kamy Bo.

Mesej ngan dia esop pulak lah.

Cukup mu sengih lebar2 hari ni.

Mikir pelik pulak family kamy nanti.haha.

(Saya sihat ok,abah mami?tertawan hati je O///O)

Tu je kut post hari ni.

dah ngantuk.

Esok panjang lagi benda nak buat ni.

Tema esok: Bright pink

seperti hatiku(jiwang! xD)

Night2.

See ya.

Hai Misai

Guess what?

And you will never guess.

You'll just ask what.

In 2 more days.It'll be raya for muslims.

Food.Money.Forgiveness.

Haha.It's been a month of fasting[ though i had to skip a few days ;) ]

Now.It's time to fatten ourselves once more.

With cookies.gulai and what's more.

Wearing new clothes.Meeting old friends.

It's the festive mood.season.atmosphere.

Though,some people are not so fortunate to be celebrating this.

Next.

please.stop.lying.to.me.

Is lying the only way you think you can be so close to me?

Gosh.that hurts.

I'm not a fool to believe those lies.Just too nice.

You're too cruel to even lie to a person who cares about you.

Forgive?yes.Forget?not that easy,honey.

I have a very strong memory on these things.

One more thing.

I gave you an answer,I didn't leave you hanging on air.

So,stop with your attitude.

Unless you treasure our friendship,better stop.

I like us to stay friends.Nothing more nothing less.

SORRY for not giving you attention.

FYI,you're not the only friend I have in this universe.

Besides,I have the rights to choose.

My life,honey.Not yours.

Next would be...

Aum~ ♥

I miss you.

I don't like it when my credit expires,

I can't text you.I can't talk with my baby giraffe.

:'( sad...sad...

Guess,you're at your hometown.

Too bad I won't be visiting it until end of this year.

Even that's a big MAYBE.

Sayang.Ai.Love.

Eh! >w<

Why do I miss you?Why am I smiling by myself?

It's unhealthy how much I think of you.

I hate that I love you so much.

Big,tall,annoying,cute,lovable,sweet jerk.

Kelly Clarkson - Dark Side

Soldier

"The Grass Ain't Always Greener On The Other Side"

YA ALLAH.

I ask for your forgiveness.

I seek your light.

One.

I know we always got issues.

We'll always have time when we fight.

but I rather fight with you.

Than try to fake a smile for someone else.

Two.

I know what I did before.

I deserve what you're giving me now,I guess.

My time was always less for you when I had you.

Now,you're gone.and I want you.

Such cliche attitude,right?hahaha.sorry.

Your time is now divided so much and your attention is no longer mine.

I'm sorry,sayang.

Three. 

We...wait.I don't know about you.

I still care about you.

As much as I look like I don't give a damn.

If you get sick,I'll get worried.

No matter if I'm busy or free.

I'll ask you if you're okay or not.

Four.

I tried hating you and I almost succeeded.

Too bad I love you too much.

Now,I'm still on cloud nine.

You're not prince charming.

I don't care if you're not the richest,hottest,nicest person in the world.

Not one's perfect.I like you for you.

Flaws and all.

That's all I can say,sayang.

I'll use the nick name when we used to date.

haha.sorry :9

See ya.

Ne-Yo - Let Me Love You (Until You Learn To Love Yourself) - WITH LYRICS!

Dreams?

"I'm your fiancee."

Say what?!

Haha. 

First and foremost.

I had the craziest dream ever.

Cause the person who I dream about was a person who never crossed my mind.

He's my senior at my school.

Gosh.

Why must it be you who I dream?

Why can't it be him?

I need medication =3=

You were my fiancee in the first dream.

And yesterday.

You came to my house to get my parents blessings?

say what...

such weird dreams..

that's all.

1st post of August , baby.

Welcome to August ;)

See ya

Outasight - Now Or Never [Official Lyric Video]

Now or Never 

Kesabaran

"Will you test me to the limit?"

:')

Please.

If you really don't want me to hold on.

Just tell me to let go.

With just those words you can ease the pain.

Heal the wounds you have come upon me.

I never asked you to love me back.

To stop loving her.

All I asked from you is:

If you want to give us a second chance,let's try.

If you want us to be just friends,say it.

I'm not asking you to apologize.

It's my fault for liking you so much.

You never did ask me to love you.

You just be you.

You were sweet , nice and caring.

If those were lies,I can't say.I'm not you.

But I love that you.

I seen another side of you.

An annoying one at that.

But underneath that you still are sweet.

I still see your sweetness in that charming smile.

Haha.No.

I'm not trying to get you to like me.

I'm being me.I'm being honest.

I know .. no. I don't know.

You might still hold on or you might have let go.

But,I can see the hurt when I said her name.

I wasn't trying to be cruel.

I was only trying to test you.

Faris.

Yes.I will say your name.Besides,there's a lot of Faris in this world.

I'm sorry by saying her name triggered a bullet at your heart.

And NO.I'm not trying to run away from my actions.

:)

I tried enough of running.

I tried enough of hating.

I still love you.

I'm sorry for when I had you,I didn't appreciate you too much.

I know what I had,I just didn't appreciate it that much.

My time was divided by two.

You were my boyfriend.

I should have given you more of my attention.

No.I can't change the past.

But I can try and create a better future.

Faris.

I told you everything.

I've shown you proof.

What more do you want from me?

No.I'm not asking  a way for me to win your heart.

I'm just asking on how many ways must I show for you to be convinced by my feelings.

I asked you can you imagine what I'm feeling.

You said you don't know.

That brought tears,amore.

I've shown you why I acted this way.Why I feel this way.

You still are that uncaring of me?

No matter.

Please tell me if you don't care of what we had before.

Just tell me.

Words like that won't kill me.It can heal me :)

Don't test me to a limit.

A limit where I just stop everything.

I stop caring,loving and holding on.

Don't treat me like a machine with a metal heart.

I'm a girl.

Strong enough to stand alone.

Too fragile for only one to destroy.

I said time can heal this wound.It can.

But no one knows when that time will come.

All I want for us to change that time.

From letting go to giving a second chance.

Don't ask me why I act differently outside.

I'm not faking my attitude.

I won't show weakness to people who doesn't deserve to be given that power.

If we can talk alone.Only us.

You will see a side.Where you can break me.

With just one smile or one goodbye.

I'm not her,Faris.

Please don't expect me to be an exact replica of her for you.

Like me for me.

If you want to give US a second chance.

Do it because you love me.

Not because it feels your time or a way for you to forget her.

I'm not a toy to be played and used.

I'm a person with emotions that had been abused.

Amore.

I don't expect you to be something you're not.

Be you.

Maybe I haven't met the real you.

But to me,the one I met before.

Is real enough for me.

Love isn't when someone can kill you but trusting them not to.

Love is giving them choices of ways to kill you.

But they'll throw that all away for a hug to seal that trust.

I'm not healthy.

I asked you not to make me cry with your actions.

I can barely hold on to the jolts of pain.

Don't add the pain to what you already left once.

Wow.

This one's long too!

Haha.alright.

See ya guys.

It's late,Night! :)

Justin Bieber ft Nicki Minaj - Beauty and A Beat (Lyrics)

I just love this song ;)

"Faking a smile hurts as much as crying does"

Hey you.

Yea,you.

The person who made me love you.

You know how much is it to see you happy and I know it's because of her?

Yea.I'm happy you're happy.

I'm so selfish.I know.

But it wasn't my fault.

I wouldn't have cared and love you this much if you just told me the damn truth.

Now,it hurts.

To still remember the sweet lies you told me.

To such an extent I believe them till I let them blind me.

You love her so much.You could have told me.

We could have been best friends.

But you made me fall in love with you.

I know you're not a jerk.

Damn it.

You're a very sweet and caring person.

It's just hurt to see you still want her.

Does she wants you?

Haha.I should ask myself the same question.

Do you want me?

Since,it seems like I'm still waiting for you.

Even though I fake that perfect smile.

I perfected showing blissful happiness.

I fake it.Everything.

I don't want you to be guilty of what you did to me.

But that seems to be eating me up alive.

Gosh.

I tried liking other guys.

I tried.Oh how much I tried.

But seeing that smile of yours just brought so much tears to my eyes.

I don't expect you to love me out of sympathy.

I don't expect you to stop loving her.

I just want you to read this.

I smiled.

I laughed.

I cried.

I cursed.

You asked me.

YOU.Not me.

I'm sorry.

Everything I'm saying now might be making you feel guilty.

It should but you're not the bad guy.

You're just too nice.

And you fell in love with a girl who you don't know loves you back or not.
You made a girl love you because... I don't know why you made me love you.
I don't regret it.
I smiled remembering the times we had.
No matter how short it was.


I missed you.
How you cared about me.
But then again.
That was all merely lies.sweet lies.
I don't know.
I cried enough but I still cry.


When I saw you today.
I smiled because I finally meet you.
But.
You wanna know why I acted all shy?
I remembered.
Everything came crashing down.
I remembered you never meant a word you said to me.
How everything felt like bees stung on my heart.
And when you smiled at me.
You didn't know how much it made my heart leap and fell hard.
I miss you.Oh how much I miss you.
But,you miss her.Don't you? :)
I don't blame you.I guess you truly love her.


I want to be a friend.a sister.
But all of that seems impossible to me now.
I can't get rid of my feelings for you.
One day,i will.
But I don't know when that one day will come.


I prayed to Allah SWT.
I tried my best,Mr.F but as I said.
I can't forget you.
I'll never stop asking Allah to make me like you as a friend.
InsyaAllah,Amin.
But if you and I are destined to be together.
Subhanallah.that's fate itself.
I can't say much.




Whoa.This is a long post.
Proof that girls emotions are very dragging,haha.
see ya people.
I have tuition :)

Stupid Jerk

You big fat idiot.
I hate you.Why can't you just answer my call?reply my text?
NO.
I don't send you a billion text message.I don't call a million times.
But when I do,it means I miss you.
Stop making me miss you so much.


If you can see me now.
You'll probably laugh your head off first.
I look like a shipwreck.
But still,I miss you..you big fat idiot :'(


I don't care what the world thinks.
I Love You.
And I will continue to do so until you break my heart.
Not anyone else.
You gotta do it.


Urgh.
You big fat idiot.
I hate you so much for making me miss you.
I can't even concentrated in class and at home.
Do you know how painful it is to look at the phone and its not you?
Yea.Thanks for the person who text me.
But , I wanted it to be you.


Stupid idiot.
Why did you have to make me like you too?
We could have remain senior and junior without any of this mess.
I hate that you made me love you.
But I don't regret it.


Stupid Stupid jerk.
Do you think it's easy for me to like someone?
Well.kinda easy.
But to like a guy like you?
It was suppose to be totally impossible.


One: I don't do juniors.Never did.Especially not the one who was in the same country as me.
Two: You big fat jerk.You're not the type of people I mingle with.
Three: I don't have a reason to have known you.
Four: You are not the most sociable person in the world.


So yea.
Since,I like a person like you.
It's hard turning back time.Wait.It's impossible.
So,I have to live with the fact that I love you now.
But I don't know what you live by.


AH!
Ihateyousomuchyoubigfatjerk.Ihateyou.Ihateyou.Ihateyou....
I miss you =3=


You're pretty not oblivious to that.
Thanks a lot.
Haha.Big fat jerk.


See ya later.
I still miss you , you jerk.

Tell Me Something I Don't Know

They never gonna change my mind ;)

Hey Hi And Wassup fellow bloggers?

I'm really bored so decided to post some random babbling.

Be ready , haha :D

Guess.Guess!

Do you know that loving someone sucks when they make you wait?

Haha.I do.

Cause the one I like really is pissing me off.

I like him but he really needs to at least reply my messages.

C'mon.

If you don't wanna talk,just say it.

If you ignore me,you're treating me like a ghost.

You know I'm there but you pretend that I'm not.

>w<

Shoot you.

I hate you!!! haha.

Bye boy.

Well,today is the first day of Ramadhan.

Alhamdulillah.

InsyaAllah,I can fast without nagging.hehe :3

So,anything else?

Hmm..nope!

See ya guys.

Tata~