Missing You

Oppa , I miss you.

Hey hi and hello everyone.

Well , today I'm just gonna talk about my Oppa .

Nothing else.

So , I asked you not to criticize this simple post of mine .

Mmm..

It started when my grandparents were talking about his family .

Being lazy , I barely took notice of what's happening . 

Then , when a boy's certain age and my name was said . 

My senses fling into action . 
I immediately ease drop! haha xD
He was compliment by my grandpa who said he goes to the mosque.
I was like "I miss you , ....." 
Yea.It hurt how much I miss him.


Damn feelings.
I hate it how much I miss him but at such wrong times.
Urgh . Why must you come back in my mind?
Oppa... How did we left each other's life?
Why didn't we remain friends?
When will we ever be friends again?
Where is the friendship we once had?
Who tore us apart?
So many questions..So many feelings. 
For one specific guy.


Urgh.I hate this feeling but I Love the guy.
Can't I forget him just like blows of wind through my strains of hair.
It's not that I hate the feeling of being in love , it's just I hate the fact that it's at the wrong time.
Live life as a student right.


I don't wanna waste my time being so called 'in love' if it's not real.
I like knowing love exist just not now.
Nothing might change now but who knows.
Life's complicated.
You can't expect anything to stay the same.


So, 
see ya.

Maxie ^^

I Hate You , Maxie :P

Hehe.

Hey there human beings of earth and alien peeps.

Well..life's good and a b*tch sometimes.

so,you gotta enjoy life for now.

Oh my..I'm getting fidgety :D

The reason for this sudden post is to tell you about a person who I really adore!

His name is Maxie.He's mine! haha,kidding.

Mmm..He's from Norway so like you might ask

"Where did you even meet him?"

That my friend,is none of your business :)

He is such a teaser and sweetheart.

Annoying as a hell and goofy as a douche.
Well,It's weird how you can feel for a guy in times of knowing him.


Oh well...


I really like him but then again.
I like being single and not having a care for dates and so called 'love'
Oh life.Thanks for being fair


See ya people :)

Fool ;)

Fool me ? i don't think so.

'silly girl,you just got played'

Haha.Boy,I'm playing you.
You're just too egoistic to see that *smirks*
Isn't it fun playing pyschology?You can win or lose.

Hey Hi and Hello Bloggers of the Night.
Guess i'm feeling feisty tonight.
I'm so sick of the fake 'I Love You'
Please..I wasn't born yesterday.I know when you're lying or when you're pouring your hearts content.
No girl should be played by a worthless guy like you.

Girls have value.
Our value is high.Try reaching that value and you will see.
How valued a woman is.

So,STOP.
Playing with our hearts,
Manipulating our trust.
Treating us like candies,
throwing away the ones you had enough.

I'm a girl,
I'm a future woman :)
I'll defend my gender,I'll defend my rights.
I am lover but I'll fight for love.

Ok.
Gotta go now.
night2 :)

Insane!

Insanity as of now.

Hey hi and hello fellow bloggers.
Yea.Insane.That's how mess up I feel right now.
Haha.

'Hey, I just met you,
And this is crazy,
But here's my number,
So call me, maybe'

I just met you.So why am I this messed up?!
I need therapy,I so do.
To say that I am basically head over heals for you.
No.That's not the damn case.
Yet knowing that fact you told me.
I got hurt.BAD.Why was that?
Why am I so messed up -.-

Now with exam week, this stress ain't helping so much.
Why can't you just go away!
Haha,then again.
I miss you too much *bitter smile*
This is so messed up.
I'm not shaking.just trembling.haha.
Good joke from the english speaker who came to my school.

I Like You .... -.-
I can't really lie to myself.I'm me.
I need therapy,anyone willing to sponsor?haha.

Gotta go now , i guess.
See ya later ;)

Silly Me

Silly.isn't?

I thought life was going great for me.
Now.I feel like crying.

Hey Hi and Hello.
Been a long time since i updated.
Miss blogging.My one way ticket of a relieve heart.haha
Well,
er..haha.This is awkward.

Well to get a head's up notice.
I broke up with good terms so yeah.
We're still the best of friends just you know.
Friends :)

Next is Spell It Right sponsored by Kesukma was held recently.
Alhamdulillah got second place with my team mates.
Sic first place,Smip third,Smk Z(2) fourth and Smk KB fifth.
So yeah.
Spelling seems to be a good start for me.

And well.. next.
Today was very sweet~
I got chocolates and sweets from my friends who went to Langkawi.
And thank you to you Afzan! :)
That chocolate was damn awesome.
Love you for that,lol.

Well..
This is the latest thing I'm gonna tell.
Isn't it silly? When everything seems to go just right.
When one thing change that all.
Yeah..
That happen to me.

Shoot me for this.please.
I can't say why.I don't know why.I am asking why?
When you said that.
It stung my heart good.It shouldn't but  it did.
Why?
Damn feelings and hormones.Get yourself straight.
Don't go gay on me.

Yeah.
My friends said so but i said no.
I know it ain't true right.
I can't be repeating the cycle again?
no.noo...No!
I won't dammit.I just won't.

Heck.I'm confuse.
I'm sickly confuse.
Need to think.
See ya later :|

Reasoning

Hey Hello and Hi !


Oh gosh, someone's perky :D





Well,


You know about my relationship right?


Well.. I thought about the big B and U


Break - Up . :O





OMG.


Not really. I knew I'll feel it soon enough.


It's something I already expected.


But , crap!


I don't have a clue how to tell him. =='





It's not that I don't how to be patient.


I just don't what to.


It's not that I can't be in love,


I just don't what to.





Conclusion: I just don't want to :)





I'm not feeling anything for anyone.


Maybe that's the point.


I just don't feel now.


Lifeless wouldn't fit. i just am emotionless


It's strange, haha.





I'm strange ! xD


That's true , hehe





Oh well,breakup or not.


I'm sleepy~ hehe





Nighty night everyone :)





See ya later times

Paranoid

Hi Hello and Hey :)

Oh my!
It's already March ? How time flies.
It's been weeks since i last posted.
Had no time to post not to be honest :D
I just didn't have to posting mood for these past weeks.

Well,
From the title of my post you must think i have lose my conscious.
Sorry to say,I'm still stable.

To start this post,
I can easily say Mr. Monkey : I like you .. Kut! xD
I know this is so awfully weird but i THINK i do.
But i'll just keep on saying NO till he says something or says nothing at all.

On the meanwhile,
My current relationship with my Boyfriend has been splendid.

UNTIL..
I made it public.
Gosh! Get off my back.
Why do you care if i date?
I'm happy. Aren't you glad ?
For once , I can smile a REAL smile for everyone else.
And you want to take that away?
Not to be rude or harsh or mean.
But please.
Haven't you taken away most of my happiness away before.

Back Off.
I finally found a guy who can be my best friend and my love.
Yea , yea.
I'm young.So what?

This is my life.
To choose my path, To choose the route i wanna take, To choose my future.
You can only guide me.
You can't force to follow yours.
I WON'T let you.

I was literally happy with my Boyfriend until you came along being all defensive.
It's not that i don't appreciate,I do.
But can't you trust me?I'm a big girl
Stop looking at me like I'm that 5 year old kid who likes stuffing candy in her mouth.

You can't guard me forever.
I'll grow into a Woman someday.
And you can no longer control me.
I'm on my own two feet.

Let me learn to live independently.
Let me walk on my own two feet.
Look at me like the Teen I am now.
Look at me and trust me.

The only reason I'm rebelious is because you lack trust in me.
Start trusting me and I'll start being more Mature.

Wow.
A long post I've made.
Haha :)
All my hearts content are out , i think.

Toodles then,
See ya :)