Here Me Out , Love

Hey Hi and Hello Bloggers of the World.

Well this post of mine is gonna be sorta long so don't stay if you don't want to.
It's something i want one person to read.
I know i am wrong.
But here me out first , i am not expecting forgiveness.
I just want you to listen for a moment :)

Ok.
I admit it.
I've been cruel throughout the times before PMR
I know i wasn't that friendly
I'm all emo
i give u answers like i don't care
and i just concentrated on one friend more than you
Damn it! i know I'm wrong but you should have at least tried talking to me like you used to after PMR.
Ok,maybe i should have tried as well
but i guess i was to hype that PMR is damn over.

When were you cast aside?
Why do you feel like you're cast aside?
Who cast you aside?
How did you think you were cast aside?

Look love.
I know i have been giving you the cold shoulders before PMR.
My answers were simple and distant when you talked to me.
I chose another friend to talk you than you.
I talk to people whose distant are farther from me than you are.
I ignored you most of the time when you wanted or needed me.
I talk behind your back and felt no guilt.
I hated your attitude when mine was worse as well.
I know i have more faults i myself can point out.

You tried to fit in,at least you tried.
You tried,i didn't.
You really think i am close to these group of friends ?
You're closer to them cause you tried.
They care for you more than they care for me.

You contributed to these group of friends.
Don't you realize that?Financially yes and other ways as well.
Your opinion matters,everyone's opinion matters.

YEA.
I miss you.Is that so hard to believe?
I may not talk to you during those times before PMR.
That doesn't mean i don't care.
Doesn't mean i despise u
Doesn't mean i think your crap,Heck! maybe i'm the crap.
I wasn't there when at times you needed me?
In those 3 years,love.
I've seen you cried.
You've seen my cried.
I saw you giggle seeing your crush.
I saw you turn from an english girl to a total fangirl.

I'm not being little goody two shoes.
But i am sick of posting like i am on a rampage.
You're just gonna be more distant.
Yea,I didn't miss the old you during May or June.
I can't go back in time to change my mistakes.
I know I've hurt you.
I'm human love.
I can't stay the same every year,i change and you do to.

I can't say anything more since i think my fingers are tired from typing and i don't really know what else i can say through the web.
If we meet during result day,let's talk.
And i mean as friends.. not as strangers.
You've changed.I've changed.
We're not the same anymore.
But we've gotta cope with changes in life.

I'm sorry I've been distant.
Sorry I've been cruel
Sorry I've treat you like your not important to me
Sorry I've let you down at times.
But as i said,I can't change the past.
But we can change to future together as friends :)

That's all,
see ya

Aishiteru

Hey Hi and Hello!
It's been a long tme since i updated my blog.
I've been busy with games and sleeping xD

Well,i have some interesting news,well for me it is.
hehehe.

I have a Boyfriend
Boo!

see ya,random much!right?
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