Outasight - Now Or Never [Official Lyric Video]

Now or Never 

Kesabaran

"Will you test me to the limit?"

:')

Please.

If you really don't want me to hold on.

Just tell me to let go.

With just those words you can ease the pain.

Heal the wounds you have come upon me.

I never asked you to love me back.

To stop loving her.

All I asked from you is:

If you want to give us a second chance,let's try.

If you want us to be just friends,say it.

I'm not asking you to apologize.

It's my fault for liking you so much.

You never did ask me to love you.

You just be you.

You were sweet , nice and caring.

If those were lies,I can't say.I'm not you.

But I love that you.

I seen another side of you.

An annoying one at that.

But underneath that you still are sweet.

I still see your sweetness in that charming smile.

Haha.No.

I'm not trying to get you to like me.

I'm being me.I'm being honest.

I know .. no. I don't know.

You might still hold on or you might have let go.

But,I can see the hurt when I said her name.

I wasn't trying to be cruel.

I was only trying to test you.

Faris.

Yes.I will say your name.Besides,there's a lot of Faris in this world.

I'm sorry by saying her name triggered a bullet at your heart.

And NO.I'm not trying to run away from my actions.

:)

I tried enough of running.

I tried enough of hating.

I still love you.

I'm sorry for when I had you,I didn't appreciate you too much.

I know what I had,I just didn't appreciate it that much.

My time was divided by two.

You were my boyfriend.

I should have given you more of my attention.

No.I can't change the past.

But I can try and create a better future.

Faris.

I told you everything.

I've shown you proof.

What more do you want from me?

No.I'm not asking  a way for me to win your heart.

I'm just asking on how many ways must I show for you to be convinced by my feelings.

I asked you can you imagine what I'm feeling.

You said you don't know.

That brought tears,amore.

I've shown you why I acted this way.Why I feel this way.

You still are that uncaring of me?

No matter.

Please tell me if you don't care of what we had before.

Just tell me.

Words like that won't kill me.It can heal me :)

Don't test me to a limit.

A limit where I just stop everything.

I stop caring,loving and holding on.

Don't treat me like a machine with a metal heart.

I'm a girl.

Strong enough to stand alone.

Too fragile for only one to destroy.

I said time can heal this wound.It can.

But no one knows when that time will come.

All I want for us to change that time.

From letting go to giving a second chance.

Don't ask me why I act differently outside.

I'm not faking my attitude.

I won't show weakness to people who doesn't deserve to be given that power.

If we can talk alone.Only us.

You will see a side.Where you can break me.

With just one smile or one goodbye.

I'm not her,Faris.

Please don't expect me to be an exact replica of her for you.

Like me for me.

If you want to give US a second chance.

Do it because you love me.

Not because it feels your time or a way for you to forget her.

I'm not a toy to be played and used.

I'm a person with emotions that had been abused.

Amore.

I don't expect you to be something you're not.

Be you.

Maybe I haven't met the real you.

But to me,the one I met before.

Is real enough for me.

Love isn't when someone can kill you but trusting them not to.

Love is giving them choices of ways to kill you.

But they'll throw that all away for a hug to seal that trust.

I'm not healthy.

I asked you not to make me cry with your actions.

I can barely hold on to the jolts of pain.

Don't add the pain to what you already left once.

Wow.

This one's long too!

Haha.alright.

See ya guys.

It's late,Night! :)

Justin Bieber ft Nicki Minaj - Beauty and A Beat (Lyrics)

I just love this song ;)

"Faking a smile hurts as much as crying does"

Hey you.

Yea,you.

The person who made me love you.

You know how much is it to see you happy and I know it's because of her?

Yea.I'm happy you're happy.

I'm so selfish.I know.

But it wasn't my fault.

I wouldn't have cared and love you this much if you just told me the damn truth.

Now,it hurts.

To still remember the sweet lies you told me.

To such an extent I believe them till I let them blind me.

You love her so much.You could have told me.

We could have been best friends.

But you made me fall in love with you.

I know you're not a jerk.

Damn it.

You're a very sweet and caring person.

It's just hurt to see you still want her.

Does she wants you?

Haha.I should ask myself the same question.

Do you want me?

Since,it seems like I'm still waiting for you.

Even though I fake that perfect smile.

I perfected showing blissful happiness.

I fake it.Everything.

I don't want you to be guilty of what you did to me.

But that seems to be eating me up alive.

Gosh.

I tried liking other guys.

I tried.Oh how much I tried.

But seeing that smile of yours just brought so much tears to my eyes.

I don't expect you to love me out of sympathy.

I don't expect you to stop loving her.

I just want you to read this.

I smiled.

I laughed.

I cried.

I cursed.

You asked me.

YOU.Not me.

I'm sorry.

Everything I'm saying now might be making you feel guilty.

It should but you're not the bad guy.

You're just too nice.

And you fell in love with a girl who you don't know loves you back or not.
You made a girl love you because... I don't know why you made me love you.
I don't regret it.
I smiled remembering the times we had.
No matter how short it was.


I missed you.
How you cared about me.
But then again.
That was all merely lies.sweet lies.
I don't know.
I cried enough but I still cry.


When I saw you today.
I smiled because I finally meet you.
But.
You wanna know why I acted all shy?
I remembered.
Everything came crashing down.
I remembered you never meant a word you said to me.
How everything felt like bees stung on my heart.
And when you smiled at me.
You didn't know how much it made my heart leap and fell hard.
I miss you.Oh how much I miss you.
But,you miss her.Don't you? :)
I don't blame you.I guess you truly love her.


I want to be a friend.a sister.
But all of that seems impossible to me now.
I can't get rid of my feelings for you.
One day,i will.
But I don't know when that one day will come.


I prayed to Allah SWT.
I tried my best,Mr.F but as I said.
I can't forget you.
I'll never stop asking Allah to make me like you as a friend.
InsyaAllah,Amin.
But if you and I are destined to be together.
Subhanallah.that's fate itself.
I can't say much.




Whoa.This is a long post.
Proof that girls emotions are very dragging,haha.
see ya people.
I have tuition :)

Stupid Jerk

You big fat idiot.
I hate you.Why can't you just answer my call?reply my text?
NO.
I don't send you a billion text message.I don't call a million times.
But when I do,it means I miss you.
Stop making me miss you so much.


If you can see me now.
You'll probably laugh your head off first.
I look like a shipwreck.
But still,I miss you..you big fat idiot :'(


I don't care what the world thinks.
I Love You.
And I will continue to do so until you break my heart.
Not anyone else.
You gotta do it.


Urgh.
You big fat idiot.
I hate you so much for making me miss you.
I can't even concentrated in class and at home.
Do you know how painful it is to look at the phone and its not you?
Yea.Thanks for the person who text me.
But , I wanted it to be you.


Stupid idiot.
Why did you have to make me like you too?
We could have remain senior and junior without any of this mess.
I hate that you made me love you.
But I don't regret it.


Stupid Stupid jerk.
Do you think it's easy for me to like someone?
Well.kinda easy.
But to like a guy like you?
It was suppose to be totally impossible.


One: I don't do juniors.Never did.Especially not the one who was in the same country as me.
Two: You big fat jerk.You're not the type of people I mingle with.
Three: I don't have a reason to have known you.
Four: You are not the most sociable person in the world.


So yea.
Since,I like a person like you.
It's hard turning back time.Wait.It's impossible.
So,I have to live with the fact that I love you now.
But I don't know what you live by.


AH!
Ihateyousomuchyoubigfatjerk.Ihateyou.Ihateyou.Ihateyou....
I miss you =3=


You're pretty not oblivious to that.
Thanks a lot.
Haha.Big fat jerk.


See ya later.
I still miss you , you jerk.

Tell Me Something I Don't Know

They never gonna change my mind ;)

Hey Hi And Wassup fellow bloggers?

I'm really bored so decided to post some random babbling.

Be ready , haha :D

Guess.Guess!

Do you know that loving someone sucks when they make you wait?

Haha.I do.

Cause the one I like really is pissing me off.

I like him but he really needs to at least reply my messages.

C'mon.

If you don't wanna talk,just say it.

If you ignore me,you're treating me like a ghost.

You know I'm there but you pretend that I'm not.

>w<

Shoot you.

I hate you!!! haha.

Bye boy.

Well,today is the first day of Ramadhan.

Alhamdulillah.

InsyaAllah,I can fast without nagging.hehe :3

So,anything else?

Hmm..nope!

See ya guys.

Tata~ 

Tears

Crying is when being strong is enough.

Hey Hi and Hello bloggers.

Well today,I'll talk English.

Haha.

Today,is all about the tears baby.

You guys can easily play with a girl's heart.

Are you really that cold hearted?

You think this is ZAMAN JAHILIAH.

No girls should be played like a toy.

If you love her.

Show her you love her.

Don't treat her like a fool.

I cried so much because of guys like this.

Those 3 words.

"I LOVE YOU"

It holds so much meaning for a girl.

Don't manipulate those words to get what you want.

If you don't mean it.

So,don't say it.

It's not so hard to keep your mouth shut.

Hmm..That's all.

Gotta go now.

See ya later.

Wink* Wink*

Baby , Thanks for everything.

Hey hi and Hello fellow bloggers.

Bored as heck.

Felt like posting.

After this line.I'm sorry if you don't understand.

Weh.Banyak lah masalah bila sayang kat orang.

Ni lah malas nak menyayangi orang.

Bakpo eh hati ni glernya sangat nak gi sayang kat dua orang tu?

Doh sorang tu buat aku nangis loni.

Sore tu sama jugak x lama lagi.

Ingat hati perempuan ni keras po batu ko?

Kita ni belajar sains key.

Pehe2 lah hati ni sangat rapuh.

Laki pertama ni.

Time kenal baik jah.Sweet jah.

Loni pun sweet tapi ho lah.

Duk royak 'I Love You' tu key.

Ingat perempuan anggap remeh ko?

Agak2 lah nak guna 3 perkataan tu pun.

Kalau maknakan baru royak.

Habis air mata jah aku cayo kat ayat tu.

Bukan nak marah ke apa.

Tapi sedih lah.

Sokmo bila aku sayang orang , gini lah jadi.

Sedap jah mulut yang manis tu.

Nak benci pun,pernah sayang,

Bukan dapat gapo pun kalau benci.

Baik lupakan.

Buat sakit hati jah , ada lah.

Malas weh sayang orang!!!

Hok satu lagi pulak.

Ore hantar mesej x balas.

Ore call x angkat.

Weh pakcik.Ngaju ke marah ni?

Ada saya buat salah?

Kalau ada ,sori lah.

Tapi jangan sampai buat ore ni jadi runsing.

No.Saya x menggilai anda.

Tapi bila sayang.

Biasa lah jadi runsing ni.

Royak sayang.Maknakan ke tak tu?

Kalau x , baik royak.

Malas doh nak nangis gini.

Hati sokmo dipermainkan.

MALAS!!!

Malas dah jatuh hati ko sapo2 pun.

Buat sakit hati jah.

Mu dua orang buat aku koho benci ko spesies laki macam sep mu.

Bukan kaum Adam yang ku benci.

Tapi spesies sep2 mu lah.

Dasar playboy!!

Haha.Mu ingat aku baik sgt ko?

Dey tunjuk belang.Susah nak  tutup balik.

Haha.That's all.

Wow.This is a long post.

I'm very pissed.

See ya later.

Rawr.

Hey fellow bloggers.

Well from the photo above.you can clearly see that I am in a relationship.

So,yea.

Been a long time since I updated my blog.

Have a diary now so my online diary is rarely used.

Sorry!

Well.

Guess my boyfriend's age.

I'll just say he's younger than me.

Haha.

Don't call me a child molester.

One:I'm the girl.

Two:Molesting is a sick , sinful action.

Ok.

And I miss him.

Cause well,he's busy and I'm busy too.

So,we partially see each other.

Well,today.

I literally felt like exploding.

He was 'flirting' with other girls.

And I was like "What the hell,dude?"

Ok.Fine.

If you wanna play it that way.

I can play it just as good as you.

I ask one of my good guy friends to help.

Since he had a bird eye view of where I was at that time.

I let him look at the little scene I planned.

I leaned gently on the corridor.

He leaned closer to me our face inches apart.

And boom!

I smirk like an idiot.

It was perfect.

I haven't ask him yet about his little flirtatiousness towards the girls.

And,

He haven't asked me.

So,we're even :)

Ok.

Time to watch WWE again.

I want my baby Randy Orton to show up.

Haha.

Dada~ See ya later.